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Volume 4, Number 7
July, 1999
Life Revisited
by
Jimmy Perkins
Brothers and Sis were two houses over from where Mom was. They was playin in
the front room of my aunt's house where the coal stove sat. It was twenty
degrees out and snow was all over the ground. Dad was drivin down from
Detroit without a hint what was happenin and no way to let him know.
Mammy took care of Mom till Doc Obrian arrived.
The hospital lay forty mile cross the Cumberland Mountain. She didn't want
to go neither. She had never been and she wasn't goin now. That was the way
in the hills. The side of the mountain saw new life on that cold and snowy
winter day. The twelfth day in to that year, an innocence awakened to the
world. Gloriously new and fresh to all things.
There was no malice nor fear nor understandin of such things in the strong
and tiny miracle heart. A view past the tar paper and board and batten gave
light to the red clay path and road leading to the shallow valley below. The
dirt road led to everywhere and most of the time back again. That's how life
is and always will be. All comes and goes.
The ridges where the mountain people live never have had much to offer and
it's easy to see why. Red clay won't grow a thing except brush, Kudzu, and
them old knotty pines. Hard life and hard people with a fondness for the
mountains. That was the easy thing to see.
The mornin hours just 'fore the sun burned off the fog seemed in particular
to be most lonely in the ridges. No one around, just you walkin the road to
a relative's or just standin along the tracks. No train come by that early.
It was too quiet and the hills wouldn't take to any interruption durin this
changin time of the day. A weary stray might stare at you from it's grass
bed in the brush, haggard like the bums down past the depot. It didn't know
if you was goin' to run it off or offer your hand. The air smelled like no
future might smell if it had an odor to it. It made you want to get away
and away is exactly where my family went. In Baltimore dad welded in the
shipyard. The war was goin' then and a lot of mountain people went to
Baltimore. Most didn't stay though. Baltimore seemed like a trial place for
all of us. It was a place to see if you could take to the strangeness of
being away from the hills. Mom and dad stayed and relatives began to follow.
Two rooms was all there was and a hallway separated them. One was the bedroom
and the other was where you could cook. There's a picture of Mom and Dad
and Sis on a tar roof just outside a screen doorway to the hall. Sis played
on that roof, five stories up. Beat down and hard...hard as an old stomped
floor with a rancid smell. After the war in Europe everybody found themselves
back downhome to renew themselves. "Just Over In The Glory Land"... That's
where dad found himself.
A tent revival was in town. It was religion, entertainment, and just plain
relief for everybody. Tired of tryin and tryin with little success, the
whole community was there night after night, searchin. Dad went and that
was a fair amount. He had taken a rougher road earlier in life and now the
stress and joy and work for the family softened that road. He went up and
got saved. There was peace, not necessarily in the valley, but peace just
the same. Shortly afterwards, he became ordained and started preachin. He
preached and people from everywhere came and listened. He had the gift, it
was plain. Respected and regarded, dad had been called. He made his mark
with the gift given him. During this time of preachin, it alone could not
sustain the family. Dad drove the bus line to the plants but, after the bomb
was dropped that soon played out. He bought a ten ton tandem wheel truck to
haul coal from the tipple, however, finding tin cans and smashing 'em with
the huge tires was all he really found that was steady. This was no living
so, Dad cut his losses and went on. He still preached but not as often. He
went north himself first. There was work in Indiana, then the bus line in
Detroit and finally in Cincinnati doin some sort of driving. We were at least
fed. Dad found a town up north that suited him and he sent for us. He parked
cars and worked two and three jobs, any job, just for his family.
There we were right smack amid what would be a not so sweet an awakenin.
Accents and culture soon became somethin fights and conflicts were made of.
Downhome people didn't know it but soon enough colored town, run down
tenements, and a prejudice that ate you alive was part of everyday life.
"Southern Exodus", there could be no other name for it. Seems like every
relative to come up the pick stayed with us.
My dad never said a thing though, not that he was a quiet man.
I guess because he was only tryin to survive too. Most went back. The strain
from being away from the mountains was too much for all except the strongest
or desperate. The pull drug em back like a magnet. My family had better stock
though. We made it that way. That's how we survived. Everybody from downhome
lived in a certain section of town back in those times. Mostly on the fringes
of colored town. But, still close enough to the see uptown and know the
aggravation brought on by being different. Landlords didn't want to rent to
mountain people with children so, it was hunt for whatever you could find. We
lived with cockroaches and varmits people wouldn't let their dogs live with.
The wall paper from decades past was always peelin off and scribbled on from
the children who had been before us. I remember the long two and three story
buildings that at one time were great houses. They were now apartments and
boardin rooms that should've long ago been condemned. Third Street is the
first place my memory can recall. It only had two rooms. One was the livin
room, which served as our bedroom, and the kitchen, where everything went on.
We took baths there, played there durin cold weather and relatives even slept
in the big closet next to the refrigerator. The only bathroom was upstairs and
was a common one used by every renter in the buildin. It had a ten foot ceilin
and above the door was a window that tilted in to let the air draft. Mom and
dad slept in the double bed with me between them while my brothers slept on
the couch that let down to where two could sleep. One to the head and one to
the foot. Sis slept on a roll away bed in the kitchen. There were many shabby
traps before then that my memory doesn't recall. There was Wilkerson Street
(next to the bus depot), Second street, and many more...
Next to the apartment on Third street was Saint Mary's street, which was
really an alley connectin the bigger streets. Part of it is still there
separatin two big brick buildins, Red Cross and Ohio Bell. There's a large
college with the biggest grass lawn us kids could only dream about sitting
where so many people came and went and cried and laughed and worked hours on
end while they fought the northern cold 'til it hurt. Inside and out. It hurt
so bad. (Durin this time Dad started the "Ringold Street Southern Missionary
Baptist Church" and that helped us all. All southerners, all in need, they
attended regularly. The church has grown since those early days forty something
years ago. It?s in the southern outer section of town known as Kettering. It?s
very blessed, very big and a new type church. I know there are a few original
members there, but how many others remember how it all began?) There was a
U-Haul trailer storage there in the alley just feet from our apartment. The
trailers, some open some enclosed, were all secured by a huge chain to a steel
post or the wrought iron fence that separated the apartments from the alley.
Inside the trailers was a haven for the drunks that staggered around town
stinkin drunk from liquor and homeless till they found the small shelters
where they slept until the next mornin. They'd start all over again stinkin
and smellin and drunk. Kids lived there! Decent people lived there by
circumstance alone. People survived. Mom and dad raised us and suffered
through the poverty and prejudice without my young mind knowin, however, I'm
sure my brothers and sister knew well about the filth and doing without. They
knew it was all they could do and time alone would cure it or make it worse.
The city gave us our shots and our clothes were bought from the bins at the
Goodwill and Salvation Army up on fifth street and Wayne Avenue. Because of
all the drunks we use to call it Filth and Wine streets. Life was difficult
because new comers are seldom welcome, especially if they were from the
mountains and threatened the lives around them. Imagine the toll it had on
all those souls from the mountains. Good or bad, this and that, we all lived
that way for a very long while. I wonder if the landlords that owned the
hideous dwellins where we lived would know that one day these same outsiders
would go on to thrive and rent and own better than anyone could have ever
wished for?
It happened as time went on and as all things that learn to survive in the
poorest conditions, we grew stronger. Dad got a union job driving pick-up
trucks and delivery type trucks from job site to job site. He rented us a
small house on the east side. Life was better and I knew it even if I was
a kid. We were doin all right even if the neighborhood was still rough. It
was still in town but, far from the dirty yards void of grass and wide busy
streets we had grown use to. There was a small bathroom, a little living
room, two bedrooms and a parlor! We didn't even know what a parlor was except
maybe just another word for sis' bedroom. That was until she got married.
She married a fellow from the hills, just another state. She was sixteen
then. My dad married them right there in that parlor of all places!
One day my oldest brother took me to one of his friend's home. The house was
in a neighborhood that sat much higher on the hill than ours and it was a fair
amount different. It was almost like being in a different world. This was
really somethin new... I marveled at the way they lived. There was a television
in a big living room where the man sat smokin and readin. A boy about my age
lay on the floor watchin T.V. The house was great. It had two stories and
wasn't even an apartment building. The man was nice and the boy was friendly
and my brother's friend was just as nice. This didn't seem right. People
surely didn't live this way. I knew that this was not like what we were use
to...
I've wondered at times if that's not why my brother took me.
Town was crowded and even if schools were better it was not good enough. My
mom had decided we had had enough and away we went. Up and out. Although dad
didn't mind staying, he knew mom was right. She really didn't give him much
alternative. Come with us or stay here...we're movin! Mom took some of the
money and put it on an apartment. Another apartment! We just left that. I'm
sure that's what everyone thought but, mom knew. It was a modern apartment.
There was two stories, two bedrooms, a bathroom, living room, dining room,
kitchen, eight windows and EVEN a walk in closet to play in! We had arrived.
Little did we know that behind the apartment buildins there were lots just
filled with grass and ball fields and stuff that could overload a down
home city kid's mind in a heartbeat.
(1941-1960)
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